Yes, the dress! ;)

I know you are dying to see the dress, the London dress, so here are a few pictures. Better ones are to come, but they will have to wait because they are not on my camera.

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The recital went beautifully. :) I still cannot believe that I actually did this after being home barely 3 months. That's crazy talk! I don't think I will ever know how...especially after rubbing elbows with what could have been terrible illness on Sunday..., but I did it! Yay! Jól volt! :) The Rossini set...muah! Fabulous! ;)

Lynn was such a dear, checking in on us numerous times and giving us sweet cards. I love that woman! I could not have done ANY of this without her. She was so proud of us. She has been there through so much...kind of like Chad.

I thought of János tonight, too, before I stepped onstage. :) I would be wrong if I didn't say that he contributed to this accomplishment, too. One full set, my Hungarian set, I feel was his. But I know Lynn respects that. I am so blessed to have had such incredible teachers in my life.

Barb played beautifully. I do wish Chad had at least been there, but I am so glad I got the chance to work with her. She is great fun and has so many wonderful ideas, too. And the Rossini...I must admit, would not have had the spark that it did if it had been done any other way. ;) I still love you, though, Chad!

My family was here, and it was wonderful to share this experience with them. I am thankful they could come, however brief they were able to stay, as they had to leave nearly directly following.

I was surrounding by loving friends as well. :) The SAI circle was the largest I have ever seen it. How beautiful!

Pretty dresses, beautiful music (I really get to sing this stuff?!), sparkly jewelry, diva bows (that was totally one of my favorite parts! I won't lie! haha!), family, friends...I am so blessed. Now back to real life I suppose... But is it really that different? They are ever-present in my life. :) However, I do feel...well, I really don't know what I feel, oddly. I guess I thought I'd feel a bigger sense of accomplishment, but I don't know. It's like that was that and now it's done, so what next? I am glad I did this, pleased with the results, but yet, I feel something is missing... I don't know what I should be thinking right now... Life happens so fast...

Eeek!

My recital is tomorrow evening! Yay! :) Super excited. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous, though. Nerves are good. You need them to a certain extent.

Dress rehearsal went great on Tuesday. We wore our dresses, so that we were accustomed to singing in them. Lynn loved it! Yay London! Yay pretty dresses! Yay Sophie for finding it! ;) I love it! Nagyon szeretem! I think my favorite part, though, is that I get to do the "diva" bow! hehe! (Elise is right...definitely a diva!) Sweet! Because it would not be so graceful for me to do an actual bow in that dress... Not that kind of show! haha!

Today, I had a lesson to touch up some places that were a little shaky at the rehearsal. Semmi baj. Nothing troubled. It's going to be great. I think I am still amazed that I am actually doing this tomorrow. Not even three months back in the States and giving a recital. I honestly think that is one of the firsts for the conservatory. Most students push it off a semester. Not me! I'm not chickening out! Watch out! Soprano coming through! Full speed ahead! haha! (I am so ridiculous!) I am thankful for having a teacher that encourages me, pushes me, and won't let me step away from a challenge but rather take it on wholeheartedly and reminds me of my "mantra" of courage.

Tomorrow, is a day of total relaxation and preparing for the evening. I have nothing, yes nothing, on my schedule for the day. I have no obligation to be in my science class in the morning because I turned my paper in early, and Chad is in D.C., so no piano lesson. I have to meet with my advisor in the early afternoon, but that won't take long, and I planned on taking a walk to the library anyway around then, so all is good. :) Keep an eye out for pretty pictures to come! OH! Speaking of picture...the photos I ordered from my travels came in the mail today! Yay! ;)

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I am thankful for handwritten letters...receiving and writing them. :)

I Say a Little Prayer for You :)

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This morning in stúdió óra (studio class), Lynn let her little diva out and demonstrated in the most captivatingly beautiful way a portion of Schumann's "Widmung." I can only imagine what she was like in her prime...


Well, yesterday, I awoke to the wonderful world of head congestion. ha! Of course I would! Germs have left me alone since the plague the day care kids gave me in May, and now they decide to come throw a party. Umm...not okay with me. Friday, I can be practically dying, and I wouldn't particularly care. Now, however, I care a great deal. Elise said that Giorgio Tozzi (Brian studied with him at Indiana...and Elise and Lynn with Virginia Zeani!) used to say that you were only sick because you had to sing. Go figure. Murphy's Law, I suppose. Then, Elise called me a diva with my pashmina around my neck and eating ginger and being overly melodramatic. (Me? Overly melodramatic? No!) haha! Probably true. Takes one to know one... ;)

I also sang this morning in studio class. One of my Rossini pieces. I might not feel the grandest, but I'm sounding pretty good, if I do say so myself! Lynn hadn't seen the email I had sent her last night yet, and she didn't even know I was suffering, I guess. Yay! Let's keep that up! Please say a little extra prayer for me tonight! I have worked so much for this recital and am super excited about it...now I just need to be able to do it! Dress rehearsal tomorrow afternoon. :) Off to rest some more... I am a terrible rester! I just can't sit still or fall asleep in the middle of the day anymore!

Note:

Just thought I'd forewarn not to try eating ginger root raw...my curiosity led me astray! That is some strong stuff! I think it could make you keel over. Making tea out of ginger root, though, is quite tasty.

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I am thankful for the beauty of springtime. :)

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I am thankful for my growth as a musician and continuously raising level of musicianship skills. I know the top is so far away, but I am beginning to realize how far I truly have come. (I also need to get my butt in gear in practicing solfege if there is even the slightest chance of continuing studies with the Hungarians.) It is the true foundation of the music; it is far more than simply singing a pretty tune. Without this, the music would be incomplete. I am noticing the professional-soprano-in-training within me.

Today, I had my rehearsal time for the Singer's Showcase (an annual concert of select junior and senior vocalists where they sing an opera or concert aria with a small/chamber orchestra). It went very well. I am singing Les Filles de Cadix by Leo Delibes. I love it! Nagyon szeretem! :) It suits me well. I am really excited to finally be singing with an orchestra. (However...interesting...that orchestra will be...)

I have been trying to take it easy the past couple of days. My throat is not feeling very happy. It could be a combination of contributing factors, but whatever the cause, it is making the singing part more complicated. (Also, I seriously need to work on my support. It just sucks.) So, this weekend, I am resting and doing everything I can to keep myself well. I want to be in tip top shape for this brilliant recital coming up! ;)

Bouncy

That's how I felt all day. :) Spring was in the air, and my chats with Lynn yesterday brought my spirits up. I am pretty psyched about this recital now. (I am praying I remain healthy for another week at the very least! My throat feels like it's closing up! NOOOO! Stupid suddent weather changes!) Also, I am still in a good mood from that silly "Laughing Baby" video. hehe!

I rehearsed a little bit with Barb today. Okay, for more than a little bit...we spent a little over an hour on my Liszt piece...and completely skipping over my piano lesson I was supposed to have with Chad. Oops! We lost track of time. I think he kind of expected that'd happen, and it's Chad...how could he possibly get upset with me? haha! Just kidding! That time was much needed, though. It's rather complicated, esp. ensemble-wise. Then, again, it is Liszt, so what else would you expect?

It's been a rather productive day and yoga in the late afternoon to top that off! ;) Gail Spirit Sky, my yoga instructor, is such a sweetie. And yay for relaxation! ...something I think I accomplished for the first time in quite awhile. I'm doing pretty good right now. :)

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I am thankful for all of the truly caring and amazing people I have in my life. They are such an incredible blessing to me! :)

This is HYSTERICAL!!!! hahaha!

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One of my friends showed this to me this morning for a little dose of laughter medicine. However, I was practically rolling in the floor in hysterics. This is absolutely hilarious. I don't even know why. Laughter, I suppose, is just contagious.




From that point on, my day went better. It brought some lively giggling sparks to my life for a bit. I talked with Lynn in the morning about some stuff. I am no longer going to attend NATS this weekend. We both decided that mentally, physically, and in the sense of time, it was not a wise idea. I need to be concentrating whole-heartedly on the recital (8 days and counting...). Then, I had my lesson today, and Lynn helped me even more to feel better about it and relax a bit. We did some great work. However, I am vocally kind of tired right now. Partly to do with not sleeping well and a lot to do with the fact that I am pushing way too much. No worries. A little rest, lots of tea and honey and water, and I'll be fine. And, of course, work on not pushing. Other than that, today has been a bunch of ridiculousness, laughter, concentration, and a touch of sarcasm when needed to keep the mood light. Now, for a little motivation to get some work done this evening...

Yes, it really went like that.

Recital hearing: ugh! That was not a particularly pleasant experience. Perhaps I was just particularly filled with extra tension and anxiety on top of everything else right now. I had to restart my aria three times. Yes, three. They were quite patient with me...far more than I was with myself. However, I passed, and the recital is a-go for next Thursday. Oh so much to fix before then! Lynn kept reassuring me it is going to be fine, and that I was okay, so not to worry. Well, it's just what I do sometimes. She threw my own words back at me this evening: "Precision, not perfection, Samantha!" She said she was going to quote me...she didn't say it'd be to me! haha! She's right, though. I have not been listening to my own words. But I certainly felt nowhere near precision this afternoon. Lesson tomorrow...just breathe...belélegzom...kilélegzom...

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I am thankful for the weird, twisted relationship I have with Chad. He has been a saving grace in my life. Our little chats have kept me balanced and in-check. Rants, venting, silliness, jubilation, encouragement, and the occasional metaphorical slap in the face when I needed it. He deserves a gold star smiley face sticker! hehe! :)

Mr. Sandman, where are you?

Can't sleep...yet again, so I thought I'd write a little blurb. Nem csinalok aludni nem jó tegnap este. Did not sleep very well last night, either, so I felt like I was in a fog all day. (And I probably just made up all that Hungarian...they are real words...probably wrong structure, though. Nem baj.

In music history today, we discussed Béla Bartók. Rather, Dina did. I was a little frustrated because I felt there was a lot of pieces missing from that puzzle. Perhaps, I am a little biased, having spent a semester studying in Central Europe and learning more about Hungarian history, culture, and musical roots. I will admit I did not study much of Bartók besides his Mikrokozmosz and folk research, but to study Kodály to study Bartók is and vice versa. They did so much of their work collaboratively, esp. in their folk music collecting. Of course, I was very much instructed in the "Kodályian" way. Also, I feel that to understand all of our musical roots, we ought to know exactly where it comes from. Not only should we study the music and the composers, but we should also study the political state/division of these countries through the ages. I mean, Hungary used to be HUGE, encompassing present day Hungary, Austria, Poland, Romania, Croatia, Slovenia, Czechoslovakia, Serbia, Ukraine, Bosnia and Herzegovina, and Serbia, if I am not mistaken. It was, after all, the Austro-Hungarian Empire. With that in mind, Hungarian, or for that matter, Central and Eastern European musical roots go much deeper into the culture than seen at surface value. I guess I prefer a more thorough approach to learning. However, I could not very well challenge or question my professor's authority. That would have been crossing the wrong lines. And I know it is difficult to shove centuries of musical development into only a few months' curriculum, so somewhere shortcuts are going to be taken.

I also worked with my recital accompanist Barb today. Volt jól. It went well. She is great fun and very helpful. Recital hearing tomorrow at 1pm. (And I'm not sleeping and have to be up for class in the morning? ha! This ought to be interesting!) Thankfully, I'll have yoga right before then. Maybe calm the nerves a little. I am unusually feeling more anxiety than I ever expected about this. I love performing, but I suppose I still feel like everything is happening so suddenly. Sometimes, life just hits you fast. I think I am mostly nervous that my memory is going to fail me...it hasn't been so keen lately. We shall see...

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I am thankful for my personal journal filled with randomness of my life. :)

Turn that frown upside down...

Little things that are helping me to keep my spirits higher...

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Today, I watched An American Rhapsody. Nagyon jó volt! It was very good. It is a movie from 2001 (Scarlett Johansson plays the main girl) about the Iron Curtain falling over Hungary and the subsequent revolution (all that "1956" stuff). I now understand a little more about 1956. October 23rd is a national holiday in Hungary, and I remember that they really wouldn't tell us much about it. It's complicated and was suppressed in the education of the Hungarian people for decades. I asked some people, but they said they did not know how to explain it in English. Also, I had to be careful of the cultural lines...not to step too far into the personal or say the "wrong" thing.

I owe thanks to an old man I met on my long journey home after my stay in Hungary for telling me of this movie. At the airport in Budapest on my way back to the States, I met an American couple while standing in the seemingly endless security line (recall the lovely Ferihegy strike!). They were school teachers who have been living and teaching in Budapest for the past eight years and were going to visit their son in Philly for the holidays. They were really nice, and we had a lovely conversation.

At random moments in silly little things like this, I find myself in the midst of a sweet memory of a place I was, someone I met, a conversation that was had, etc. I am so blessed! :)