My time at home always seems so brief. There are days I wish that wasn't so (and others when not so much! haha!). I spent the days watching too much Project Runway with my little sister, playing with my nephew, random gallivanting, and getting my stuff together for this move. Our campfire was rained out and too many mosquitoes or overcast skies to lay out stargazing, but nonetheless, I appreciate my time at home...always makes it hard to leave, again.
Xander says "Happy Mother's Day" to everyone and for anything and even has a song now:
I am sorry to say I did not take very many photos, but I guess I lived the moments anyhow. Mom took lots of great pics, which I'll have to nab from her sometime, but here are a few I took:
And now, I am officially in Boston. Here we go, bluebird, on the "great Boston adventure". Let's see if my wings will carry me. ;) I arrived on Thursday afternoon via our neighbor Larry who was on his way to New Hampshire. (We won't talk about the drama of packing the car's trunk the evening before...oy!) New experiences are certainly overwhelming to begin, and I cannot deny a feeling of homesick, surrounded by everything new and uncertain...always the hope of finding a familiar face among the strangers but never finding one. Just takes some adjusting. Yesterday, I took a trip to Trader Joe's...nothing like a trip there with such nice people working there to set you upright a bit, though. ;)
There is a reason God put me here in this place at this time...I just don't know it yet. I can only hope that He will reveal it to me in due time. The lady I rented a room from is very nice but rather particular about things, and the room is fine, too. Shower sucks and no cable. :( Guess I'll have to "make it work," as Tim Gunn would say. haha! All takes time to be comfortable, though. I was certainly spoiled by my placed in Columbus. (Definitely missing that wonderful apartment!) Yet, when I step outside to the street, I somehow know just how to do what I need to...like I "belong"...or maybe I'm just growing up and learning to better spread my own wings. It took three stores to find salt for my neti pot, but I found it. I even got off at the right bus stop! Go me! ;) I opened the door for the older guy behind me at the last store, and he looked me in the eyes, said thank you with a big smile, and then said it, again, when we passed at the counter. Maybe it's the "mid-western, small town girl" influences in me, because that's just what we do, but it made me smile that he smiled. Now that is what life is supposed to be like. (All that sort of leads to the idea of my new project...not to hint or anything. hehe!)
I experienced a sense of calm within when I was here during my audition for some reason, and that odd sense seems to return when I set about on my way. I don't understand it, but we'll just call it feeling God's presence. Plus, it is very beautiful here. :) For now, it is one breath at a time and lots of prayer! I think the tears I didn't shed the past few months are catching up with me. Perhaps, (okay, certainly) I am overreacting; that's just my melodramatic nature. However, this has been a huge move for me, and that must be a point of understanding.
Unfortunately, the school buildings are closed on the weekends during the summer and by 6pm during the week, so I won't be getting back to my practicing till Monday. Not sure what nonsense persuaded me to take a room where I cannot practice... Wow, I didn't think I would miss my old apartment so much! I begin orientation at the school on the 30th, so till then, I have lots of studying to do for my entrance exams, so hopefully that will occupy me enough to lessen the homesickness. As I learned when I was living in Hungary, distance doesn't really mean anything, whether I am 225 miles, 500 miles, or 6000 miles, it all becomes the same. Thankfully, hi-speed internet will be coming to my home in PA (aka the land of dial-up), so Skype will finally be a constant reality soon! :)
Off to walk to Harvard Square, get a T pass, and scope out a bit. It's about an hour's walk, but I think it'll do me some good to clear my head. :)
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